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Jul. 7th, 2008 02:56 amOh, brilliant.
I've missed this inexplicable feeling of being worth less than dirt, of offending everyone with my very existence.
And you know the really stupid thing? It's not because I've recently done something very wrong - though it certainly feels like I have - or because someone has expressed a negative opinion of me or my work. Nothing has happened. My life is as it always was, and I'm fine. Except I feel... anxious. Not depressed, exactly, just uneasy and a somewhat guilty for no apparent reason.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm entirely mentally stable. Other times, I figure that since none of my eccentrities prevent me from continuing to function like a normal person, I'm probably all right on the whole. I should probably go see a professional about this someday, but there's this part of me that's always telling me I'm overreacting, and I'm inclined to believe it.
Well, writing this entry has made me feel better, at least. Perhaps now I can get some sleep.
I've missed this inexplicable feeling of being worth less than dirt, of offending everyone with my very existence.
And you know the really stupid thing? It's not because I've recently done something very wrong - though it certainly feels like I have - or because someone has expressed a negative opinion of me or my work. Nothing has happened. My life is as it always was, and I'm fine. Except I feel... anxious. Not depressed, exactly, just uneasy and a somewhat guilty for no apparent reason.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm entirely mentally stable. Other times, I figure that since none of my eccentrities prevent me from continuing to function like a normal person, I'm probably all right on the whole. I should probably go see a professional about this someday, but there's this part of me that's always telling me I'm overreacting, and I'm inclined to believe it.
Well, writing this entry has made me feel better, at least. Perhaps now I can get some sleep.