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[mipeltaja]

Oh, brilliant.

I've missed this inexplicable feeling of being worth less than dirt, of offending everyone with my very existence.

And you know the really stupid thing? It's not because I've recently done something very wrong - though it certainly feels like I have - or because someone has expressed a negative opinion of me or my work. Nothing has happened. My life is as it always was, and I'm fine. Except I feel... anxious. Not depressed, exactly, just uneasy and a somewhat guilty for no apparent reason.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm entirely mentally stable. Other times, I figure that since none of my eccentrities prevent me from continuing to function like a normal person, I'm probably all right on the whole. I should probably go see a professional about this someday, but there's this part of me that's always telling me I'm overreacting, and I'm inclined to believe it.

Well, writing this entry has made me feel better, at least. Perhaps now I can get some sleep.

Comments

[runic-binary.livejournal.com]

I feel like that sometimes. I'm bipolar, but I don't think everyone who feels like that is. Sometimes it helps to talk about it.


(Argh. Forgive me my momentary RP journal slip.)

[mipeltaja.livejournal.com]

Hm. I don't know nearly enough about what being bipolar entails, so I can't even begin to guess if that's a plausible explanation for my getting that feeling.
Though I'm beginning to think that in my case, it's a symptom of disoccupation (no idea if that's entirely normal, either but...).
This entire spring has gone past in a blur with so much to do and so little time and I never once got that feeling during that time. Now that I've hit a calm of sorts, with nothing to sort out and the only deadline being the weekly comic page, it has returned. Or perhaps that's not it at all

[runic-binary.livejournal.com]

Well, being bipolar entails violent, unpredictable mood swings and manic-depression, so I don't know if that's you. XD When I get that feeling it's a mild mania symptom, so basically it's just anxiety. It very well could just be disoccupation, and if that feels like the most logical explanation to you, then it's probably what it is (at least in my experience). I think a lot of people who have packed schedules or are frequently occupied get sort of anxious when they don't have much to do, so it's probably not just you, if that helps.

[carmine-eyes.livejournal.com]

*hug*

I think what you just described is something everyone feels at some point or another, and talking about it does tend to help a bit.

And if it helps, I'm convinced that "mental stability" is a myth; unless something is wrong enough where you literally can't function, you're probably fine.

[mipeltaja.livejournal.com]

I'm convinced that "mental stability" is a myth

Yeah, it probably is, come to think of it. I mean, there's certainly no such thing as "perfectly normal". People just like to pretend there is, and that they meet that imaginary standard...